In My Higher Power’s Time

I came into CoDA 15 years ago and it's been quite a journey. I hope this helps another person in Recovery exercise gentleness, patience & a loving compassion towards themselves.

The highlights of my short story here are to recognize as a Co-Dependent how far I've come; how I'm practicing daily not to compare myself to others as well as not judge myself harshly.

I'll start by sharing that I've needed to learn slowly how to trust the process, my awareness and slow healing and my next step. I really believe H.P. speaks through other people. Trusting the process includes not allowing myself to be used and/or abused and trusting the boundaries I set with others. This includes myself.

My limitations have certainly been tested.

Overall, I believe there is a time for doing and a time to leave things undone.

'Don't just do something, sit there' is one of many favorite quotes.

Sometimes slowly, sometimes quickly I'm accepting there is a reason – a larger plan – my life is on hold.

There are times of stillness, and they certainly have lessons.

Next to last I still have moments of indecisiveness with regards to the Twelve Steps. But being willing has power. And I practice them as best I can. I believe everyone's journey is unique. But with an active involvement, quiet wait/holy pauses and keeping an open mind. I keep on trucking!

Ella R, Grateful Co-Dependent 10/10/2024

Everybody in CoDA has a story to tell. Sharing yours may help thousands of codependents still suffering. We are always accepting submissions. Please contribute your experience, strength and hope by emailing your story to wr@coda.org.