“In this moment I know this pain will end and I am grateful.”

I’ve lived long enough on this earth to have experienced various painful moments, even painful seasons of my life. I’ve felt loss at the death of a loved one and loss of a loved relationship. I’ve also experienced the extreme joy of bringing new life to the world. Pain and ecstasy in just that one experience of childbirth. I’ve known joy and happiness. Both are as necessary to me as day and night are needed. I need a time to be active, I need a time of rest. In my CoDA recovery I’m learning acceptance. I can be in the moment, whether it’s a “good time” or what I used to consider as a “bad” time. Through experience, I’m learning to trust the loving guidance of my God (my Higher Power). God has not failed me yet. If I’m going through an uncomfortable time, it may be for my own good. I am learning to not only thank God for the good times, but also for the “bad” times and for the knowledge that good will come out of the pain.

Respectfully submitted,
Debbie - January 5, 2021

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